Recently, my spiritual state is not normal, and I even think to turn to a specialist. Maybe a medium or a psychic.

Look, if you're having mental health problems, you'd be better off making an appointment with a psychotherapist instead of wasting your money on dubious services.

In fact, if I were you, I would go to both a psychotherapist and a psychic or medium, because it is possible that both will help you. In general, I also recommend reading how does energy healing work, because it is quite interesting information about how you can manage your energy. Sometimes I really see the point in it.